So I finished a 30 day fast this year during the first part of the year. Part of my focus for the entire thirty day period was a series of requests that sort of tied into each other. The things that I focused my prayers on most were:
- The calling in my life confirmed
- The re-anointing of my calling
- Re-focus in my ministry on Him and not myself
- Regain the faith that I feel I was losing
- To hear the voice of God in my life and ministry
- To see the church gain in salvations because of the loss of focus from myself
As I looked at these things I realized that I had some serious work to do but I also realized that through my re-focus in Him, these things were very simple.
During the thirty days I had all of these things answered exactly the way I thought. I felt as if God really wanted me to succeed and to gain a new momentum in my life and ministry. It is so tough starting a church and having these expectations and then feeling that they were not being accomplished.
It was amazing first to feel the hands of God on me again and then to see His Word literally come alive in my life and ministry. Of course during this time God had a chance to tell me like it was. I knew that He had been setting me a part for something great and yet I looked past Him and began to look at myself in the mirror. That is what is so hard when I was a senior pastor in a church. We have a tendency to become very task oriented and concentrate very hard on others around us that we lose focus of God. I felt that during that moment Christ was giving back to me that passion to be a servant to all people. Acts 2:42-47 says, “They devoted themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to the fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. Everyone was filled with awe, and many wonders and miraculous signs were done by the apostles. All the believers were together and had everything in common. Selling their possessions and goods, they gave to anyone as he had need. Every day they continued to meet together in the temple courts. They broke bread in their homes and ate together with glad and sincere hearts, praising God and enjoying the favor of all the people. And the Lord added to their number daily those who were being saved.” Part of my refocusing and recommitting my call back to Christ during this month was to get a renewed passion for the lost and a heart for those disconnected from Christ. So this was the verse that I felt God gave me, that if I focus and commit to get people to meet together and to get them to commit to serving and being a part of the body that God would perform miraculous signs and wonders but also add to our numbers of those who were being saved.